Recently I have rediscovered my love of art, I’m not your usual art lover tho, I don’t get classical art all tho I am often in awe of those famous artists as there works are skillful, just not me. I’m partially sighted so my disability denotes that I am unlikely to be fabulous at art in the world of fully sighted people and if I’m honest the thought of spending my weekend looking at a load of pictures hung on a wall is not fun.
Its amazing I can deal with even the thought of being artistic, the scars from school art lessons, being the only partially sighted one. In junior school I was the one who’s drawing was never as good as anyone else’s, or the one who’s waterfall looked like a heap of wet newspaper. The other kids didn’t really understand there was a reason I was so rubbish at being creative. Actually at some points the teachers didn’t even get it I remember distinctly when I was in year 4 at school and my teacher said to the class ‘people with glasses can see more than people without so they are even better at copying art’. I have no idea where she got that idea from, but I seem to remember it annoying me!
In secondary school it was little better if not worse, the art staff where patronising, really patronising, they gave up on me before I had even picked up a pencil, they could just tell, probably because of my disability that I would be rubbish. I had to endure the head of art pretending to no what my picture was of, getting round it by saying ‘ I like the way you have created movement’ when I had actually drawn a rock. One of my favorite lesions of art (NOT) was when we where doing something, I can’t even remember what it was but we where using very fine pencils and pressing very lightly, that was the idea anyway. So me, nose to paper forced by the teacher to use the same pencil as everyone else tried my best, what I ended up with was a landscape of hills and mountains and sky , my teacher actually said it was one of the best pieces I had done all year and gave me a merit. I was surprised but to be honest couldn’t really see the whole picture so assumed it must have been sort of all right. well in next weeks lesson we where doing some painting type thing I opened my art book to the first available page did my art. Teacher came up to me to look at it and we where both shocked to discover I had actually painted all over last weeks work, I couldn’t even see it was there.
So school art was pretty horrific, I mean that was a brief selection of the horrors, not including things from the other pupils!
I only really got in to art and thought i could do something constructive, possibly even good, after I brought my graphics tablet. For those who don’t know a graphics tablet is basically a small pen and pad which you plug in to the PC and use instead of the mouse to do arty stuff. Its opened up a whole new world of creativity for me, I haven’t been able to use my graphics tablet since my PC blew up last year, at that time I lost all my work, everything I had created.
Now finally on Thursday I reinstalled the software and shock horror it worked!
since then I have really realised just how much I missed not having it, I cant stop creating, doodling and generally making a virtual mess.
I have created a number of images (which can be seen in the slide show under the title of this blog) One of them I have even entered in to the mind M.A.D art exhibition. its called ‘A world of brightness’ and here it is.