Corneal Calamity

Well its been almost 2 weeks now since I saw a corneal specialist at the eye unit, meaning I now have 2 eye constants! For those not in the know the cornea is the clear window at the front of the eye, it plays a role  in shaping the eye and keeping it at the right pressure.

For a while now i have known I have a problem with mine, it all started way back when I started trying to wear contact lenses again, I was getting on fine with them, and gradually increasing the time I spent wearing them, not wearing glasses was great! As far as I was aware there where no problems until I went for a check up and it was found that my corneas on the other hand HATED the change and where dye was placed in my eye they shone back brightly in such a shade of fluorescent orange that the optometrist doing my contact lens stuff was utterly shocked and ran off in search of a camera. She didn’t find a camera but immediately stopped all talk of contacts and reffered me to see my eye consultant, this is probably approaching 2 years ago.

I was diagnosed with corneal oedema, basically flid filled sacks where forming on my cornea as a reaction to having higher than normal intraocular pressure (caused by Glaucoma) a change in medication and no more contacts for me and the general consensus of the consultants I saw was that all would be well.

unfortunately that was not the case, my corneas have continued to be cloudy, and got cloudier. To be perfectly honest I have not really noticed this except maybe when I am very tired I fund I struggled to read even large print as everything is just rather blurry. I was refered to  a corneal specialist.

Now we are back up to me sitting in the doctor’s office a few weeks ago, I was fully expecting on seeing Mr Corneal Specialist that I would simply have another change of medication and that would be that problem solved, what I was essentially told was totally unexpected and a total shock to the system.

It turns out I need a corneal transplant in both eyes, this involves taking the cornea from a donor (yes a DEAD PERSON) and implanting it into my eye, once my own damaged bit of cornea has been removed.

This is because the cells right at the back of my cornea are dying as a result of all the surgery I had as a baby that saved my sight in the first place, apparently it’s happening to everyone who had the kinds of surgery I had back in 1988. My cousin born a few years before me with the same eye conditions has exactly the same problem. So the death of the cells in the back of my cornea is causing them to break away from the rest of my corneal float around and get in the way turning all cloudy and full of fluid.

Cornea transplants are quite common and are more often than not successful and rejection is relatively rare, and if the worst does happen they simply repeat the surgery. However for me there are more risks, my eyes are smaller than average and I don’t have a lens which is normally critical in helping the eye keep its shape during the surgery.

On the plus side the surgery might improve my vision, I say this but too much of an increase of my vision would defiantly be a negative for me. I have always been at very best partially sighted, if I was offered a drug that could get me full sight tomorrow with no risks and a 100% guaranteed success rate – I would not take it! I am happy the way I am being blind is part of my entire identity I have never really known any different to suddenly be fully sighted I would struggle to cope with such massive life change.

On the other hand the surgery might not work, it could all go terribly wrong and might damage my vision further.

However by far the worst case scenario is that I do nothing, slowly the condition of my corneas will deteriorate and I will lose all the vision I have, the amount of pain I experience in my eyes would also increase. This scares me, as much as I don’t want to be fully sighted I don’t want my vision to deteriorate dramatically either, I value the eyesight I have enormously and the thought of going totally blind is heartbreaking for me, it would without a doubt turn my life upside down, as it would with anyone.

It’s been a difficult few weeks trying to work out what I want to do about all this ready for when I speak to Mr Corneal Consultant again in a  few months time, the decision actually seems clear, I have to go for surgery and just hope an pray everything goes to plan. To further complicate matters I am not ashamed to say I am rather phobic of hospitals, them make me incredibly uneasy. I am lead to believe that the surgery requires a 2-3 day stay in Hospital. I can just about cope with a visit to the eye unit the thought of spending time actually IN hospital scares the pants off me – As it would lots of other people I’m sure.

I see Mr Macular Consultant at the end of this month and there was talk when I saw Mr Corneal Consultant that I need to see a Glaucoma specialist as well as things are not to stable in that department at the moment either, apparently I may have come to the end of the road when it comes to glaucoma medication too, meaning I might need more eye surgery to do something for my glaucoma too.

Overall in it’s a particularly unhealthy time for my eyes, but there is still hope!

For those who like to watch disgusting things here’s a link to a Youtube Video of the type of surgery I need, I warn you it’s not nice to watch!

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Blindness Is The New Cancer

As you may know I have an eye condition that effects my Macular in a similar way to Age related Macular Degeneration (AMD), but alas I am not seventy! In March I had a Sub-Macular Haemorrhage caused by sever Myopia (short-sightedness) and a combination of all the other eye conditions I posses (currently about 8).

A few weeks later at a routine appointment (that was nothing to do with my eye conditions) my GP decided to give me an eye test and inform me of a new brand of vitamin that was good for the eyes. Further research showed that it might help but at £60 for a months supply for me (being a poor student) it was never an option, and to be honest I was not sold on the idea that a vitamin pill would even help my condition.

Then I saw this story telling me that a supplement could  ‘slows down blindness’.  Research suggests if you have AMD and consume a diet high in antioxidants or even better high doses of antioxidant supplements it will slow down the rate of deterioration.

That’s it sorted then eat a load of fruit and vegetables and you’ll be fine… NO!

Exactly a week previously the story was “Oily fish ‘can halt eye disease'” . It suggests that  eating Oily fish ‘like mackerel and salmon’ appears to slow down or even halt the progression of AMD.

So if you eat a diet of purely oily fish, with a side of antioxidant rich fruit and vegetables you should be all right… Maybe!

None of the above dietary suggestions will cure AMD and make it all go away they are only theories worked out by scientists who have run trails who’s sole aim is to prove their theory to make money.

To further complicate matters there are two types of AMD, Wet AMD and Dry AMD.

Currently there is no reliable treatment for Dry AMD, wet AMD does have treatment options that can slow down the disease but wont completely eradicate it.

My main point of this long rambling post is this – There are loads of ‘cures’ and preventative measures flying around in the media for cancer we are used to seeing them if we took  every precaution we would live in contaminate free clean rooms, naked and with sterile safe foods shipped in every day. It is not reality nor is it practical do possible everything possible to prevent cancer because we simply don’t (in most cases) know what causes it.

Blindness is the same in this respect there 1001 things we can apparently do to stop us going blind but in reality Ophthalmologists (eye doctors) have not yet identified all the eye conditions that effect the human race yet let alone start on what actually causes them. Thus preventing them and curing them is impossible, but the media will still go for the story of the next cure for blindness to sell its content for a profit.

Fashion advice!

OK I have done something I promised myself I would never do!

I have brought myself some proper blindy fit over cover all sunglasses.

Now in the picture on the website they did not look too bad there are in plum which is supposedly a purple colour, and they had a kind of fade down kind of effect so there where dark at the top and slightly lighter at the bottom. now in reality they are a VERY VERY dark grey with a hint of puple, not quite the shade I was expecting but that aside I need to know can I get away with wearing them in public or do they look seriously bad on me!

This is a serious question so please be brutally honest this is me asking for YOUR fashion advice!

So here’s the picture